I can't take it anymore! One of these days I will lose my FUCKING temper & get put in the damn nut house or jail. I can't be in this homeless shelter anymore. People keep picking with me, & I tell the social workers, & the social workers punish & laugh @ me. They don't want me to verbally defend myself, & they want me to tattle like a 5-yr. old & then, when I tell, I get punished.

This is no better than New Orleans-in fact, WORSE! I'm just hanging in there & focusing on my #1 ultimate goal. I came to New York for a REASON, & I didn't ask to come here. I'm about to shatter like glass. I need to get a fucking job, & I don't care what the people at this shelter say because if they decide to throw me out, I will be already working, & I know it will suck, & I will be getting fucked over again, but I may as well rent a room again. But then again, I shouldn't do that either. It's hard. The workers don't listen to or try to help me at all, & they blame me for all of my problems. I'm not allowed to express my feelings here. If I cry or get angry, they wanna mentally institutionalize me, & that's not fair. I was told that it's illegal to mentally hospitalize or institutionalize me, just for cursing someone out. The staff here choose favoritism of certain clients over others, & it's just not fair at all. They favor the group of women who think they're popular. Popularity shouldn't exist in a psychiatric homeless shelter, right? What makes some clients here at 350 Lafayette better than others? Huh? Some people here are just gay & stupid! So many lesbos & murderers here. I deserve better than to live here. My whole, entire life is fucked up, & I'm STUCK in a DEEP hole I can't get out of.

I wanna say more, but I gotta go 2 bed like a 3-yr. old. I'll elaborate on this more tomorrow.